I'm EMOTIONAL today. For some reasons I feel so heavy. I feel like there's a hole in my heart. It's difficult to breathe... It's painful... emotionally speaking.
Sometimes, feeling like this is inevitable... I used to run away from sadness and pretend to be happy in front of the people but I wanted to be HONEST... you have to be honest and face this emotion if you want to end your suffering.
4 Tips to ease the sadness:
1. Write.
This is for the people who don't have somebody to talk to... like me. Technically, I'm an introvert. Introverts are not good in spoken words but excellent in written words. Writing is one of my ways to get out the emotions in my head, in my chest, in my heart...Next time you feel sad... Try it, believe me, writing will bring peace in your mind.
2. Listen.
Listening to music is one of the best ways to ease the sadness. Whatever song you listen into will be great as long as you like it. As for me, I like to listen to acoustic, classical, instrumental whenever I feel BLUE (sad). I write while listening to music and my emotions naturally flow, my hands move on their own to create words that I'm writing right now.
3. Sleep.
It's difficult to sleep when you have lots of thoughts in your head. You always find yourself having a hard time closing your eyes and even if you count million sheeps... it's not enough. BUT, you have to rest your head, your mind and your body... don't be too difficult to yourself. There's still tomorrow, you can do all the things that you weren't able to do today... It's never too late to say what you wanted to say, to do what you wanted to do...
4. Talk.
If you're an extrovert, you could always find somebody to talk to. My advice? Make sure to find someone who will LISTEN to you, someone who will not interrupt you while you talk...
Let me share to you the great mixtape that I found online (http://8tracks.com/drunk-kisses/to-ease-the-heartache)...
Good Luck. Remember, TOMORROW IS A NEW DAY. Enjoy today. Face Tomorrow with courage and DON'T GIVE UP. Pursue what you wanted to pursue...
Don't be afraid. Spread the LOVE!
Things that made me happy: (Too many to mention but...)
- Free schedule.
- Making the designs for the Coffee Mugs.
- Writing letters.
- Gift wrapping my gifts for my students.
- Conversations with my students.
- Being told that I'm suitable to teach professionals.
- Being told to Enjoy my life. (I will... you too)
- Being told that I'm a great teacher.
- Making other people happy (Because this makes me happy too... VERY HAPPY.)
- Being told that they will miss me. (I will too... I can never forget. I will never forget.)
- Being told that I'm the best just the way I am.
Saturday, July 27, 2013
Saturday, July 20, 2013
Blog // Powerful word "SORRY"
(Photo from: www.123rf.com )
Promises are important to me; especially if I'm the one who made them. Breaking a promise is easy as ABC... this is the REALITY. If somebody broke his or her promise to me, of course I will definitely feel BAD.
For some reasons, making promises is very easy for us but fulfilling them is difficult. Is it because of some circumstances that are inevitable? Or is it because we tend to forget the promises that we actually made? By BREAKING it... we should always remember that there are people who will feel bad, sad and disappointed.
This week... I unintentionally hurt a friend of mine by making a promise that I wasn't able to fulfill. I made my friend very excited but look what I did... I made her disappointed.
I said "Sorry"... she has forgiven me already and you know what... I learned my lessons. I don't break promises and this is the first time for so many years. I wanted to make my friend feel better and saying "SORRY" is the only thing that I am capable of.... for now.
At the end... I feel relieved because we're okay now. I told myself that I will not going to make her (my friend) feel bad again. I treasure my friends very much because they treasure me too. I think it's only right and just to give the exact same feelings to them.
SORRY... made me HAPPY and RELIEVED.
Things I learned:
- Don't make a promise if you're not going to fulfill it.
- Say "Sorry" and make sure you mean it.
"MERRY GO ROUND" week. A lot of things happened and I am very THANKFUL for everything.
Things that made me HAPPY:
- Comedy jeepney ride with down to earth passengers.
- Laughing out loud with strangers.
- Haruto-kun letter and origami (5 years old Japanese kid)
- Conversations and laughing with my students.
- "You're a good teacher."
- Loving parents.
- Understanding friends.
- That I am still alive and breathing.
- Being told that I'm an interesting person. THANK YOU!
Tuesday, July 9, 2013
What's up: I am CINDY (Cinderella)
If I am going to paint what I am feeling at the moment... it would be the usual gray and black shade. Neutral Tone.
As I am typing this... my thoughts are Tangled. Confused. I can't even express my real emotion.
What happened today made me realize that I am a WEAK person. A chicken. Weakling. How I wish I could be like my friends who are strong, who have the guts to fight for their rights... but as for me. I STILL can't.
I hate fighting and bickering as much as possible, but in this certain case it is inevitable. I have to stand up and be strong in front of the people who are trying to ruin me. I have to be independent. It is sad because I am the kind of person who always needs protection... but this time, I want to lean on myself.
I never thought that I will be able to meet people who could make me feel that the world is full of evil beings. I am a nice person but please... I am begging you not to take advantage of this. I already begged them many times; but what did they do? They took advantage of it. I HAD ENOUGH.
Yes. I am CINDERELLA. Why? because my shoes went missing. I terribly hate LIARS and LYING. I can't tolerate them... white lies are okay but BIG LIES are NO-NO.
I therefore conclude that PRINCE CHARMING don't exist. My shoes are now in the hands of someone who is a GUILTY LIAR. I feel very sad, because I wasn't able to get back what is really MINE.
However, I AM A LUCKY person. My friends and parents are very supportive and they have given me courage to be strong and advice on how to treat the people who are trying to pull me down. Crab Mentality is everywhere. Beware.
Tomorrow is another day. I will do what I can to fight for my right. Good night. Good night.
Things that made me happy:
- Grapes
- Laughter of my coworkers
- Banana Song
- Talking with my students
- Sounds of Baby's laughter
- The texture of My soft bed
Things that made me sad:
- LIARS
- Lying
- Back stabbers
As I am typing this... my thoughts are Tangled. Confused. I can't even express my real emotion.
What happened today made me realize that I am a WEAK person. A chicken. Weakling. How I wish I could be like my friends who are strong, who have the guts to fight for their rights... but as for me. I STILL can't.
I hate fighting and bickering as much as possible, but in this certain case it is inevitable. I have to stand up and be strong in front of the people who are trying to ruin me. I have to be independent. It is sad because I am the kind of person who always needs protection... but this time, I want to lean on myself.
I never thought that I will be able to meet people who could make me feel that the world is full of evil beings. I am a nice person but please... I am begging you not to take advantage of this. I already begged them many times; but what did they do? They took advantage of it. I HAD ENOUGH.
Yes. I am CINDERELLA. Why? because my shoes went missing. I terribly hate LIARS and LYING. I can't tolerate them... white lies are okay but BIG LIES are NO-NO.
I therefore conclude that PRINCE CHARMING don't exist. My shoes are now in the hands of someone who is a GUILTY LIAR. I feel very sad, because I wasn't able to get back what is really MINE.
However, I AM A LUCKY person. My friends and parents are very supportive and they have given me courage to be strong and advice on how to treat the people who are trying to pull me down. Crab Mentality is everywhere. Beware.
Tomorrow is another day. I will do what I can to fight for my right. Good night. Good night.
Things that made me happy:
- Grapes
- Laughter of my coworkers
- Banana Song
- Talking with my students
- Sounds of Baby's laughter
- The texture of My soft bed
Things that made me sad:
- LIARS
- Lying
- Back stabbers
Thursday, June 13, 2013
Blog: 10 Honest Answers to 10 Deep Questions That Will Free My Mind
Ciao! Si! Italian... for the past few days, I've been into learning L'italiano. It was the influence of my lovely co-workers. Learning a different language is like travelling to another country and this is what I want to do in the near future. TRAVEL. Unfortunately, I cannot take my plans into actions right away because my fund is kind of hitting the negative since I've been into the state of idleness for 3 weeks now. There's some problem in my workplace that I don't want to elaborate here but I am praying for extended patience. I am hoping for a brighter tomorrow and I will be waiting until SUNDAY.
So today or tonight (because it's 9:21 pm here in my place) I am going to share the 10 questions that I encountered in marcandangel.com entitled "50 questions that will free your mind". 50 is a big number so I only chose 10.
1. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Answer: Helping others. I will never get tired of this. Even if this will not make me rich I will do anything I can to help other people.
2. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Answer: Honest answer. YES. I will. I will do anything... EVERYTHING to save my loved one.
3. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Answer: Canada. Fort Mc Murray. Aside from the fact that my aunt is there... after seeing the scenery in the pictures... it makes me want to see the place vividly with my own eyes. I feel like I can actually live there and be happily surrounded by NATURE.
4. Why are you, you?
Answer: Because I chose to be ME. By the choice that I made... I learned a great deal of lessons. I'm always me and I noticed that I annoyed people, they misunderstood my intentions, they called me weird and strange. But I don't think so. I beleive that everybody is DISTINCT from each other. What other people think about me is NONE OF MY BUSINESS. My friend taught me this.
5. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
Answer: Yes. I made a mistake back then. Mistake that already belong to the PAST but since I learned a lesson from them, they influenced my NOW. 5 years ago.... that specific event still matters.
6. If not now, then when?
Answer: When my circumstance allows me to. I cannot just jump into something without measuring the up, down, left and right of my surroundings. If I am ready, my inner self will talk to me and she will say "Go!". but right now... I'm in the state of Contemplation and Confusion. I'm doing my hardest to clear my view.
7. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
Answer: MORE WORK. I love getting busy. I love a hectic schedule... I love working.
8. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Answer: Being alive is when you do things that are too mainstream. You go with the flow without actually listening to your own mind and following your heart.You do things that other people do. Truly living is when you do things that you really like, following your heart and although scared you do things that you think will make you a better person.
9. DECISIONS: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
Answer: Unfortunately, I'm still letting others influence mine. My parents. They are playing a BIG PART in my decision making process. Parents are ALWAYS right. In my opinion. It's not about letting them run my life but it's about RESPECTING their advice.
10. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
ANSWER: Because I am tired of experiencing PAIN. Mistakes bring lessons into our life as well as emotional, physical and mental pain. Mistake-Pain-Lesson. That is the process.
The remaining 40 questions will be answered in my diary. I just want to share this 10 answers because this week I experienced TOO MUCH confusion. Somehow, answering marcandangel questions helped me to slowly clear my mind. I just hope that tomorrow the thing that I am expecting to happen will happen. Of course I will do my part to make it happen.
GOD BLESS EVERYONE.
Things that made me happy:
-My grandmother's good mood.
-That I am ALIVE! which means I still have many chances to improve my LIFE.
-Home made jelly.
-Oreo cookies.
-New ebooks.
-Reading books.
PS. Last Sunday. He was in my dream again.
So today or tonight (because it's 9:21 pm here in my place) I am going to share the 10 questions that I encountered in marcandangel.com entitled "50 questions that will free your mind". 50 is a big number so I only chose 10.
1. If happiness was the national currency, what kind of work would make you rich?
Answer: Helping others. I will never get tired of this. Even if this will not make me rich I will do anything I can to help other people.
2. Would you break the law to save a loved one?
Answer: Honest answer. YES. I will. I will do anything... EVERYTHING to save my loved one.
3. If you had to move to a state or country besides the one you currently live in, where would you move and why?
Answer: Canada. Fort Mc Murray. Aside from the fact that my aunt is there... after seeing the scenery in the pictures... it makes me want to see the place vividly with my own eyes. I feel like I can actually live there and be happily surrounded by NATURE.
4. Why are you, you?
Answer: Because I chose to be ME. By the choice that I made... I learned a great deal of lessons. I'm always me and I noticed that I annoyed people, they misunderstood my intentions, they called me weird and strange. But I don't think so. I beleive that everybody is DISTINCT from each other. What other people think about me is NONE OF MY BUSINESS. My friend taught me this.
5. Do you remember that time 5 years ago when you were extremely upset? Does it really matter now?
Answer: Yes. I made a mistake back then. Mistake that already belong to the PAST but since I learned a lesson from them, they influenced my NOW. 5 years ago.... that specific event still matters.
6. If not now, then when?
Answer: When my circumstance allows me to. I cannot just jump into something without measuring the up, down, left and right of my surroundings. If I am ready, my inner self will talk to me and she will say "Go!". but right now... I'm in the state of Contemplation and Confusion. I'm doing my hardest to clear my view.
7. Would you rather have less work to do, or more work you actually enjoy doing?
Answer: MORE WORK. I love getting busy. I love a hectic schedule... I love working.
8. What is the difference between being alive and truly living?
Answer: Being alive is when you do things that are too mainstream. You go with the flow without actually listening to your own mind and following your heart.You do things that other people do. Truly living is when you do things that you really like, following your heart and although scared you do things that you think will make you a better person.
9. DECISIONS: Are you making them for yourself, or are you letting others make them for you?
Answer: Unfortunately, I'm still letting others influence mine. My parents. They are playing a BIG PART in my decision making process. Parents are ALWAYS right. In my opinion. It's not about letting them run my life but it's about RESPECTING their advice.
10. If we learn from our mistakes, why are we always so afraid to make a mistake?
ANSWER: Because I am tired of experiencing PAIN. Mistakes bring lessons into our life as well as emotional, physical and mental pain. Mistake-Pain-Lesson. That is the process.
The remaining 40 questions will be answered in my diary. I just want to share this 10 answers because this week I experienced TOO MUCH confusion. Somehow, answering marcandangel questions helped me to slowly clear my mind. I just hope that tomorrow the thing that I am expecting to happen will happen. Of course I will do my part to make it happen.
GOD BLESS EVERYONE.
Things that made me happy:
-My grandmother's good mood.
-That I am ALIVE! which means I still have many chances to improve my LIFE.
-Home made jelly.
-Oreo cookies.
-New ebooks.
-Reading books.
PS. Last Sunday. He was in my dream again.
Wednesday, June 5, 2013
Blog // Dream it. Plan it. Do it.
A lot of people noticed that my eating habit became "Vegetarian" like, but honestly I'm not... I still eat meat (pork and beef) once in a blue moon, noodles once a month, junk foods once in a while but it's a NO-NO for soda and alcoholic drinks. I stopped drinking soda when I was still 17 years old and that was almost 6 years ago. As for alcoholic beverages.. I am not a fan of it that's why I only drink once a year. Christmas or New year... THAT'S IT.
I am starting to shift or change my habits and lifestyle. I'm starting to drink tea (Green tea), I stopped drinking coffee, I am starting to read books again because reading is a part of me, I am starting to draw and doodle, I am starting to write stuffs about life, I am starting to listen to calmer songs (instrumental, alternative, mori music), I am starting to talk to strangers again, I am starting to eat vegetables and fruits and minimize my white rice intake. Most of all... I am starting to smile and laugh again.
As for the changes I made... I was really contemplating last year about change. I was worried and afraid that I might lose my "True" self if I do this. I couldn't decide! Reason why I'd been into the state of idleness. Moving on was painful for me but I told to myself that I have to do it. Finally, I started to shove all my negative thoughts to the other side and let the positive thoughts enter my view. I even changed the color of my room (tulip beige), changed all my clothes (I had enough with my all black clothes).
Look what happened! I can say that I am HAPPY! Contented. Overwhelmed. I feel so blessed. I can't explain but from the time I decided to change and be happy even if a lot of bad things happened to me; I failed, no money, left by my friends, was insulted and constantly backstabbed last year... I feel very light. It is as if all the heavy things I carried the last time disappeared and was replaced by the ever comforting wind. I feel like I was touched by the hands of God and he was the one who helped me to stand up and organize my life.
I am happy with my job. I am happy with my new gained friends. I am happy with my old true friends. I am happy with my respectful students. I am happy with the things I have right now. I am happy.
It was only last year that I dreamed of having this kind of things to revolve around me. I started planning my future... and Now... I am working on it. Doing it is the most hardest part. I need to invest a lot of efforts but I am willing to give my all this time. There's no turning back. Focus. Concentrate. No pain, No gain.
I am not going to waste the second chance He had given me. I am learning to embrace my life, myself and everyone. I have my wings now... I only need to learn how to fly. To fly towards my Air castle.
I am a dreamer. I planned... and I am doing it now. Taking my plans into ACTION.
I know and God knows you can do it too. It takes time but you need and have to BELIEVE.
GOOD LUCK!
Good night Everyone. Don't forget to spread the love.
I love. I like. THE WORLD.
Things that made me happy:
>Passing the Civil Service Examination for Professional
>Enrolling to Post Graduate School to get my MBA
>Exercising with all my heart (ZUMBA)
>Eating my salad
>Studying Foreign language (Italian, Nihongo, Mandarin, Spanish)
>Reading books. (1Q84)
Monday, May 27, 2013
Blog // 4 Steps To Be Happy
It's been a long time. For the past weeks I became terribly busy with my work, preparation for something new in the future, focusing to myself and letting go of people who absorbed my energy.
I learned a great deal of lessons from my past mistakes. I was almost pulled into a complicated situation where people will try to destroy and torture me slowly. I am very FORTUNATE to meet people who helped get away and taught me the way out. Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.
Why should I continue to linger with people who are causing me so much stress, pressuring me to do things that I don't want to do, asking me to do things that I am not capable of and discouraging me to take actions for my plans? They're not WORTH IT. Those people will only cause my DOWNFALL. I know, they will DEFINITELY silently laugh their ass off when this thing happen. Luckily, I was able to cut the connections from them and here I am... floating, have a peaceful mind and living healthily with manageable stress.
Making myself happy is one thing that I can actually do for myself. This is not selfishness or VANITY. I can call this self nourishment. I only have few TRUE and CLOSE friends and I cannot expect them to make me happy all the time. This is my responsibility to myself as a human being. My student once said... "Think positive even in a negative situation." This is TRUE. Past is past, and although this past is still connected to the "NOW" and "FUTURE"... the most important time is "NOW" because this will greatly affect my FUTURE.
1. Choosing the right people.
I was very inspired by Marc and Angels Hack life (Thank you very much Cherry blossoms). They have lots of inspirational quotes and blog entries. They helped me in the process of making myself happy and thinking POSITIVELY all the time. Their words of encouragements were like foods for the soul that causes the reader to be free from all the bad things and bad thougths. They were the one who taught me to choose the right people. People who inspires me, encourages me, true to me, love me for WHO I am. People who are not nosy, who loves to talk about the good things, who love LIFE and love LOVE.
2. One step at time.
I have goals that I want to achieve. I have plans that I want to accomplish. But I can only achieve and accomplish them if I take some actions. I need to make plans and decisions in the future. I am going to work SLOWLY but SURELY. There's no need to hurry.
3. Do good things to other people.
Once in a while. I do good things to strangers. I give candies to taxi drivers, give biscuits to street children, smile to traffic enforcers who are tired and sweaty under the heat of the sun, give band aids to girls who are wearing 3-4 inches high heels inside the elevator, giving warm greeting to the people in the street... so on... I am not boasting about my good deeds, I am only trying to say that doing those things made me feel wonderful, somehow I made a difference in their life.
4. Talk about GOOD things.
Recently, I noticed that everytme I talk about good things... I only hear good things too. It is actually better than to be infested with bad things like rumors and stuffs about other people.
Sometimes, I don't need money to make myself happy. Words and actions are enough for me. My student once said "Simple is better." I learned that Simplicity can be one of the catalysts to a happy life.
GOOD DAY!
Things that made me happy:
>Passing the entrance for the graduate school. I will definitely get my degree of MASTER IN BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION. I can do it!
>Healthy foods.
>Vanilla smell.
>Cloudy day.
>Execising
PS:
I've been dreaming of this person for 2 nights in a row now.
I learned a great deal of lessons from my past mistakes. I was almost pulled into a complicated situation where people will try to destroy and torture me slowly. I am very FORTUNATE to meet people who helped get away and taught me the way out. Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.
Why should I continue to linger with people who are causing me so much stress, pressuring me to do things that I don't want to do, asking me to do things that I am not capable of and discouraging me to take actions for my plans? They're not WORTH IT. Those people will only cause my DOWNFALL. I know, they will DEFINITELY silently laugh their ass off when this thing happen. Luckily, I was able to cut the connections from them and here I am... floating, have a peaceful mind and living healthily with manageable stress.
Making myself happy is one thing that I can actually do for myself. This is not selfishness or VANITY. I can call this self nourishment. I only have few TRUE and CLOSE friends and I cannot expect them to make me happy all the time. This is my responsibility to myself as a human being. My student once said... "Think positive even in a negative situation." This is TRUE. Past is past, and although this past is still connected to the "NOW" and "FUTURE"... the most important time is "NOW" because this will greatly affect my FUTURE.
1. Choosing the right people.
I was very inspired by Marc and Angels Hack life (Thank you very much Cherry blossoms). They have lots of inspirational quotes and blog entries. They helped me in the process of making myself happy and thinking POSITIVELY all the time. Their words of encouragements were like foods for the soul that causes the reader to be free from all the bad things and bad thougths. They were the one who taught me to choose the right people. People who inspires me, encourages me, true to me, love me for WHO I am. People who are not nosy, who loves to talk about the good things, who love LIFE and love LOVE.
2. One step at time.
I have goals that I want to achieve. I have plans that I want to accomplish. But I can only achieve and accomplish them if I take some actions. I need to make plans and decisions in the future. I am going to work SLOWLY but SURELY. There's no need to hurry.
3. Do good things to other people.
Once in a while. I do good things to strangers. I give candies to taxi drivers, give biscuits to street children, smile to traffic enforcers who are tired and sweaty under the heat of the sun, give band aids to girls who are wearing 3-4 inches high heels inside the elevator, giving warm greeting to the people in the street... so on... I am not boasting about my good deeds, I am only trying to say that doing those things made me feel wonderful, somehow I made a difference in their life.
4. Talk about GOOD things.
Recently, I noticed that everytme I talk about good things... I only hear good things too. It is actually better than to be infested with bad things like rumors and stuffs about other people.
Sometimes, I don't need money to make myself happy. Words and actions are enough for me. My student once said "Simple is better." I learned that Simplicity can be one of the catalysts to a happy life.
GOOD DAY!
Things that made me happy:
>Passing the entrance for the graduate school. I will definitely get my degree of MASTER IN BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION. I can do it!
>Healthy foods.
>Vanilla smell.
>Cloudy day.
>Execising
PS:
I've been dreaming of this person for 2 nights in a row now.
Friday, May 10, 2013
Blog // My Mother
HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!!!!!!! I decided to make a post about my mother as my way of saying THANK YOU for everything.
Words are not enough to express how THANKFUL I am to be her daughter. I am so grateful to have her as my mother. I will never forget all the things she did for me since the day I was born.
She is decent and pure; my father was actually her first ever "REAL" boyfriend. Maybe, she is the reason why I am still single right now... I want to follow her foot steps "First and Last."
My mother? She doesn't like skinship and cheesy things. She never called me "Anak' or any kind of endearment and even if I envy my cousins and my friends because their mother call them in different cute names I know that my mother has her own style.
Even if I am an only child (basically), I don't get sad when I am with her. I feel secured and protected. I always feel like nobody could hurt me as long as I have her beside me.
She supported me in everything. When I was down and depressed, she was there to guide me. When everybody hated and bullied me, she was there to make me strong. When other people told me that I am UGLY, she was there to tell me that she never had an UGLY DAUGHTER. When my old friends left me, she was there to be my friend.
We are always together. We eat breakfast and dinner together. We take a bath together (sometimes). Sometimes when I feel very sad, we sleep together.
She always cooks me delicious food. She buys me cute things and pretty clothes. She takes care of me everyday and especially whenever I am sick.
SHE IS THE BEST. She is my first teacher. She used to scold me everytime I make mistake in my homework; she is a strict MATH TEACHER and I terribly hated reviewing MATH with her. Just kidding. Nevertheless, she is the reason why I am here right now. Not for her? I will never ever like studying. Because of her constant nagging about "STUDY FIRST" I came to be a grade concious student and I hated low scores... I thank her for this because I was inspired to study hard.
FASHION ADVISER.
BESTFRIEND. My bestfriend next to Frances Marie. We have lots of things in common and we can most of the time read in what's in each others head.
TO MY MOTHER,
Happy Mother's day. I know you hate cheesy-ness but I still decided to make a post about you. Time is gold and I want you to know how thankful and greatful I am to have you as my mother. Even if there are times when we cannot agree on certain things, I understand your behaviour because you are my mother. I'm sorry for being stubborn about my health... I know you are always worried because I am always sick. I'm sorry if I wasn't able to achieve my number goal in life but I am doing everything I can to be happy.... at least. I'm sorry for shouting and screaming whenever I feel irritated and annoyed. Please support me always and I really really appreciate all the things you did for me. I promise to be good and do good and kind things to other people.
Thanks Mama! :)
For you friends...
Let's love our Mother and always remember... NOBODY CAN EVER REPLACE OUR MOTHER.
This song is dedicated to my mother: Thank You Mom by Good Charlotte.
Things that made me happy:
>My forever friend Tiny-Oh
>Hanging out with parents (China town)
>New clothes... one is chinese style... hahaha!
>Pictures with elementary friends.
>Flyleaf songs
>Chatting with art enthusiast
Words are not enough to express how THANKFUL I am to be her daughter. I am so grateful to have her as my mother. I will never forget all the things she did for me since the day I was born.
She is decent and pure; my father was actually her first ever "REAL" boyfriend. Maybe, she is the reason why I am still single right now... I want to follow her foot steps "First and Last."
My mother? She doesn't like skinship and cheesy things. She never called me "Anak' or any kind of endearment and even if I envy my cousins and my friends because their mother call them in different cute names I know that my mother has her own style.
Even if I am an only child (basically), I don't get sad when I am with her. I feel secured and protected. I always feel like nobody could hurt me as long as I have her beside me.
She supported me in everything. When I was down and depressed, she was there to guide me. When everybody hated and bullied me, she was there to make me strong. When other people told me that I am UGLY, she was there to tell me that she never had an UGLY DAUGHTER. When my old friends left me, she was there to be my friend.
We are always together. We eat breakfast and dinner together. We take a bath together (sometimes). Sometimes when I feel very sad, we sleep together.
She always cooks me delicious food. She buys me cute things and pretty clothes. She takes care of me everyday and especially whenever I am sick.
SHE IS THE BEST. She is my first teacher. She used to scold me everytime I make mistake in my homework; she is a strict MATH TEACHER and I terribly hated reviewing MATH with her. Just kidding. Nevertheless, she is the reason why I am here right now. Not for her? I will never ever like studying. Because of her constant nagging about "STUDY FIRST" I came to be a grade concious student and I hated low scores... I thank her for this because I was inspired to study hard.
FASHION ADVISER.
BESTFRIEND. My bestfriend next to Frances Marie. We have lots of things in common and we can most of the time read in what's in each others head.
TO MY MOTHER,
Happy Mother's day. I know you hate cheesy-ness but I still decided to make a post about you. Time is gold and I want you to know how thankful and greatful I am to have you as my mother. Even if there are times when we cannot agree on certain things, I understand your behaviour because you are my mother. I'm sorry for being stubborn about my health... I know you are always worried because I am always sick. I'm sorry if I wasn't able to achieve my number goal in life but I am doing everything I can to be happy.... at least. I'm sorry for shouting and screaming whenever I feel irritated and annoyed. Please support me always and I really really appreciate all the things you did for me. I promise to be good and do good and kind things to other people.
Thanks Mama! :)
For you friends...
Let's love our Mother and always remember... NOBODY CAN EVER REPLACE OUR MOTHER.
This song is dedicated to my mother: Thank You Mom by Good Charlotte.
(2009 SM Mall of Asia)
Things that made me happy:
>My forever friend Tiny-Oh
>Hanging out with parents (China town)
>New clothes... one is chinese style... hahaha!
>Pictures with elementary friends.
>Flyleaf songs
>Chatting with art enthusiast
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