BLACK SATURDAY. I received a message from God...
"You are WONDERFULLY made." This message hit me with a BANG! Yes. I am WONDERFULLY made because the one who made me is WONDERFUL.
Now, I feel sorry for Him because I used to hate myself a lot. My fault, My fault because I was always affected whenever other people say bad things about me. I used to ask Him, "Why? Why me of all people in the world?! Why do I have to experience such terrible things?". But you know what... those experiences helped me to know myself better and love myself more even if I am not perfect. I came to love and accept all my flaws, because if they cannot accept them... who else will?
God never made two people exactly alike. Ever since I was born I was always compared to other girls. I got tired of listening to the same old things like "She's smart... you're not.", "She's pretty... you're not.", "She has pretty hair...", "She's sexy, you're not." Maybe... they cannot really understand that the other girls and I are different from each other. We are made to become who we really are not to become the exact same girl.
We are who we are. If they cannot accept this fact... don't make them. How can you make someone understand who doesn't want to understand? How can you make someone listen who doesn't want to hear your reasonings? You are going to waste your time explaining yourself.
Let's not be envious and jealous... Let's love ourselves! Why? Try to observe the people around you. Just try... you will see and realize how lucky you are for being you. I tried this before and you know what? It was a heart breaking experience... but I learned a great deal of lessons.
I saw street childrens who were begging for money just to have something to eat. I saw street vendors wearing shabby clothes and selling rags in order for them to buy foods for their family. I saw an old man without his left leg and begging for money on the streets. I saw an old woman, naked, dirty, shivering and begging for food. I saw a little girl with a huge bump on her face and I learned that it was cancer. I saw children who have serious illness fighting for their lives everyday... I saw a lot of things.
Although one can say that I am being dramatic here... seeing them like that... broke my heart and somehow made me feel that I am an extremely lucky person.
I am very thankful for everything. Those people showed me the way out of the darkness and when I finally got out the burden I am carrying disappeared. THANK YOU.
I may not go to church every Sunday but I see to it that I thank Him for everyday, evey hour, every minute, every second of my life.
Physically, I am not beautiful. I have a wide and huge forhead, thick lips, huge face, curly hair, sensitive skin, pale face, flat nose but these imperfections are part of me. It is enough for me to have two hands, two legs, complete fingers, healthy body... because... believe me... there are lots of people who want to have what I have. There are people who want to have what you have.
So enjoy every minute of your life and stop worrying. Remember that YOU ARE WONDERFULLY MADE.
Good Night!
Things that made me happy:
>Strawberry candy
>Vegetable Salad
>My puppies
>My parents
>New books
>Seeing his name. <3 hahaha!
P.S.
When I say "Him", I am talking about God. :)
