A lot of people noticed that my eating habit became "Vegetarian" like, but honestly I'm not... I still eat meat (pork and beef) once in a blue moon, noodles once a month, junk foods once in a while but it's a NO-NO for soda and alcoholic drinks. I stopped drinking soda when I was still 17 years old and that was almost 6 years ago. As for alcoholic beverages.. I am not a fan of it that's why I only drink once a year. Christmas or New year... THAT'S IT.
I am starting to shift or change my habits and lifestyle. I'm starting to drink tea (Green tea), I stopped drinking coffee, I am starting to read books again because reading is a part of me, I am starting to draw and doodle, I am starting to write stuffs about life, I am starting to listen to calmer songs (instrumental, alternative, mori music), I am starting to talk to strangers again, I am starting to eat vegetables and fruits and minimize my white rice intake. Most of all... I am starting to smile and laugh again.
As for the changes I made... I was really contemplating last year about change. I was worried and afraid that I might lose my "True" self if I do this. I couldn't decide! Reason why I'd been into the state of idleness. Moving on was painful for me but I told to myself that I have to do it. Finally, I started to shove all my negative thoughts to the other side and let the positive thoughts enter my view. I even changed the color of my room (tulip beige), changed all my clothes (I had enough with my all black clothes).
Look what happened! I can say that I am HAPPY! Contented. Overwhelmed. I feel so blessed. I can't explain but from the time I decided to change and be happy even if a lot of bad things happened to me; I failed, no money, left by my friends, was insulted and constantly backstabbed last year... I feel very light. It is as if all the heavy things I carried the last time disappeared and was replaced by the ever comforting wind. I feel like I was touched by the hands of God and he was the one who helped me to stand up and organize my life.
I am happy with my job. I am happy with my new gained friends. I am happy with my old true friends. I am happy with my respectful students. I am happy with the things I have right now. I am happy.
It was only last year that I dreamed of having this kind of things to revolve around me. I started planning my future... and Now... I am working on it. Doing it is the most hardest part. I need to invest a lot of efforts but I am willing to give my all this time. There's no turning back. Focus. Concentrate. No pain, No gain.
I am not going to waste the second chance He had given me. I am learning to embrace my life, myself and everyone. I have my wings now... I only need to learn how to fly. To fly towards my Air castle.
I am a dreamer. I planned... and I am doing it now. Taking my plans into ACTION.
I know and God knows you can do it too. It takes time but you need and have to BELIEVE.
GOOD LUCK!
Good night Everyone. Don't forget to spread the love.
I love. I like. THE WORLD.
Things that made me happy:
>Passing the Civil Service Examination for Professional
>Enrolling to Post Graduate School to get my MBA
>Exercising with all my heart (ZUMBA)
>Eating my salad
>Studying Foreign language (Italian, Nihongo, Mandarin, Spanish)
>Reading books. (1Q84)
