(Photo by: Ina Palisoc)
As I have mentioned before... once in a while, I PLAY AROUND. This picture was taken the week when we shot an inspirational video for a competition. Ms. Ina and I were so overwhelmed by the POSITIVE feed backs coming from people of different nationality... unfortunately, there were also people who gave us insulting and "below the belt" (means: terribly insulting) comments and the worst thing that happened was our video was blocked in youtube.
When we joined the competition, we already knew that there would be people who would "hate" us... Honestly speaking... our video is very artistic and I LIKE IT A LOT. I'm just being honest here. If the people can't accept it as an entry to that competition... it's OKAY because we can still use it for other purposes and one of them is for this blog
I wrote the script the day before the video shoot. While I was writing at that time, I was really emotional... reason why I could easily write what's in my mind.
Video Script:
Who am I? What am I? Is every thing's just a dream? Or maybe, my complex imagination created it...
What is Life? What is Beauty? What is Happiness? What is Love? These are the questions that I usually ask to myself and to other people. For the past 23 years of my life... I think, I'm starting to have an idea about the answers to my questions. And the answers? They are something that can't be put into words but can only be seen by the eyes, can only be heard by the ears, can only be felt by our heart and most of all, the answers are buried deep inside my soul.
I'm an ordinary blogger and yet... I'm not an ordinary person... for I believe that nobody is ordinary. We are all created in different ways, we have our own identity, we have our own personality, we don't look the same physically and these facts are what make us different from one another.
The life of an ordinary blogger. This is something personal that I want to share to everybody... because everyone would be able to relate.
The past:
I was always alone... an overly and unreasonably shy person. I was not very likable and back then, everyone hated me.
My experiences in life; the good things and the bad things served as my inspiration to write, to draw, to paint, to experiment and to show that I can be me whenever I wanted to be.
It all started when I became a victim of constant discrimination. When people pushed me on the edge, pulled me down and hurt me emotionally and physically... I couldn't do anything. I didn't know how to fight... for I don't fight! because I don't believe in violence and saying bad things to other people... and yet, half of me wanted to fight to show that I don't deserve those kind of maltreatment... I was weak, very weak.
While every girl of my age is busy talking about boys, relationship, fashion... I was busy and happy reading books. A girl with nobody to talk to, no friends, alone... reading "Romeo and Juliet", writing poems and essays, daydreaming, humming... that was my life and still my life.
The writings I wrote during those times are can be read on my present blog and people who read them tells me that I am strong even if I am weak.
When people tried to tarnish my reputation... to dishonor me... I WRITE. When people back stabbed me... I WRITE. Whenever I feel depressed... I WRITE. Whenever I feel that life gets harder and harder... I WRITE. Bad things, Painful things, Failures, Frustrations, Depressions and Sadness are my bullets for my self-defense call "Writing".
I write because I want other people to be inspired. I write for free and I don;t expect praises or compliments... what I really want is... what my purpose is to let them know that no matter how hard life can be, we are the only one who can judge ourselves. We are the writer of our own life story. the comment of other people don't really matter... what matters is you... only you.Today is Sunday. I had an another hectic week. Nevertheless, I had a great time with all the people surrounded me and the new people I met and new friends. I'm still overwhelmed with all the things I received. Material gifts, letters, poems, friendship and love. These things made me feel like indeed "Life is a carnival".
Have a great day everyone!
Things that made me happy:
- Eating out with colleagues
- Gifts, letters and poems
- Him
- Positive feed backs from other people
- People who respected and appreciated me
- My parents
