Blog // 4 Steps To Be Happy

It's been a long time. For the past weeks I became terribly busy with my work, preparation for something new in the future, focusing to myself and letting go of people who absorbed my energy.
I learned a great deal of lessons from my past mistakes. I was almost pulled into a complicated situation where people will try to destroy and torture me slowly. I am very FORTUNATE to meet people who helped get away and taught me the way out. Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.

Why should I continue to linger with people who are causing me so much stress, pressuring me to do things that I don't want to do, asking me to do things that I am not capable of and discouraging me to take actions for my plans? They're not WORTH IT. Those people will only cause my DOWNFALL. I know, they will DEFINITELY silently laugh their ass off when this thing happen. Luckily, I was able to cut the connections from them and here I am... floating, have a peaceful mind and living healthily with manageable stress.

Making myself happy is one thing that I can actually do for myself. This is not selfishness or VANITY. I can call this self nourishment. I only have few TRUE and CLOSE friends and I cannot expect them to make me happy all the time. This is my responsibility to myself as a human being. My student once said... "Think positive even in a negative situation." This is TRUE. Past is past, and although this past is still connected to the "NOW" and "FUTURE"... the most important time is "NOW" because this will greatly affect my FUTURE.

1. Choosing the right people.

I was very inspired by Marc and Angels Hack life (Thank you very much Cherry blossoms). They have lots of inspirational quotes and blog entries. They helped me in the process of making myself happy and thinking POSITIVELY all the time. Their words of encouragements were like foods for the soul that causes the reader to be free from all the bad things and bad thougths. They were the one who taught me to choose the right people. People who inspires me, encourages me, true to me, love me for WHO I am. People who are not nosy, who loves to talk about the good things, who love LIFE and love LOVE.

2. One step at time.

I have goals that I want to achieve. I have plans that I want to accomplish. But I can only achieve and accomplish them if I take some actions. I need to make plans and decisions in the future. I am going to work SLOWLY but SURELY. There's no need to hurry.

3. Do good things to other people.

Once in a while. I do good things to strangers. I give candies to taxi drivers, give biscuits to street children, smile to traffic enforcers who are tired and sweaty under the heat of the sun, give band aids to girls who are wearing 3-4 inches high heels inside the elevator, giving warm greeting to the people in the street... so on... I am not boasting about my good deeds, I am only trying to say that doing those things made me feel wonderful, somehow I made a difference in their life.

4. Talk about GOOD things.

Recently, I noticed that everytme I talk about good things... I only hear good things too. It is actually better than to be infested with bad things like rumors and stuffs about other people. 

Sometimes, I don't need money to make myself happy. Words and actions are enough for me. My student once said "Simple is better." I learned that Simplicity can be one of the catalysts to a happy life.

GOOD DAY!

Things that made me happy:
>Passing the entrance for the graduate school. I will definitely get my degree of MASTER IN BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION. I can do it!
>Healthy foods.
>Vanilla smell.
>Cloudy day.
>Execising

PS:
I've been dreaming of this person for 2 nights in a row now.

Blog // My Mother

HAPPY MOTHER's DAY!!!!!!! I decided to make a post about my mother as my way of saying THANK YOU for everything.

Words are not enough to express how THANKFUL I am to be her daughter. I am so grateful to have her as my mother. I will never forget all the things she did for me since the day I was born.

She is decent and pure; my father was actually her first ever "REAL" boyfriend. Maybe, she is the reason why I am still single right now... I want to follow her foot steps "First and Last."

My mother? She doesn't like skinship and cheesy things. She never called me "Anak' or any kind of endearment and even if I envy my cousins and my friends because their mother call them in different cute names I know that my mother has her own style.

Even if I am an only child (basically), I don't get sad when I am with her. I feel secured and protected. I always feel like nobody could hurt me as long as I have her beside me.

She supported me in everything. When I was down and depressed, she was there to guide me. When everybody hated and bullied me, she was there to make me strong. When other people told me that I am UGLY, she was there to tell me that she never had an UGLY DAUGHTER. When my old friends left me, she was there to be my friend.

We are always together. We eat breakfast and dinner together. We take a bath together (sometimes). Sometimes when I feel very sad, we sleep together.

She always cooks me delicious food. She buys me cute things and pretty clothes. She takes care of me everyday and especially whenever I am sick.

SHE IS THE BEST. She is my first teacher. She used to scold me everytime I make mistake in my homework; she is a strict MATH TEACHER and I terribly hated reviewing MATH with her. Just kidding. Nevertheless, she is the reason why I am here right now. Not for her? I will never ever like studying. Because of her constant nagging about "STUDY FIRST" I came to be a grade concious student and I hated  low scores... I thank her for this because I was inspired to study hard.

FASHION ADVISER.

BESTFRIEND. My bestfriend next to Frances Marie. We have lots of things in common and we can most of the time read in what's in each others head.

TO MY MOTHER,

Happy Mother's day. I know you hate cheesy-ness but I still decided to make a post about you. Time is gold and I want you to know how thankful and greatful I am to have you as my mother. Even if there are times when we cannot agree on certain things, I understand your behaviour because you are my mother. I'm sorry for being stubborn about my health... I know you are always worried because I am always sick. I'm sorry if I wasn't able to achieve my number goal in life but I am doing everything I can to be happy.... at least. I'm sorry for shouting and screaming whenever I feel irritated and annoyed. Please support me always and I really really appreciate all the things you did for me. I promise to be good and do good and kind things to other people.

Thanks Mama! :)

For you friends...

Let's love our Mother and always remember... NOBODY CAN EVER REPLACE OUR MOTHER.

This song is dedicated to my mother: Thank You Mom by Good Charlotte.

(2009 SM Mall of Asia)

Things that made me happy:
>My forever friend Tiny-Oh
>Hanging out with parents (China town)
>New clothes... one is chinese style... hahaha!
>Pictures with elementary friends.
>Flyleaf songs
>Chatting with art enthusiast

What's Up: Appreciated

Sunday! Thank you God for giving me all the things that I need. Thank you for alwyas listening to me.

Sometimes, when I don't have somebody to talk to I always pray and talk to Him. Talking to Him is like talking to a friend; a friend who will LISTEN without interrupting you in what you are saying. It's nice because even if I can't see Him I always feel his presence.

Lately, I've been getting a lot of positive feedbacks with regards to my arts. I feel appreciated, great and wanted... No word can express how grateful I am to the people who are pushing me to make more art. They are my inspiration.

And... when somebody told me that he respected my talent... my heart melted and I immediately thanked God. I am very lucky to have my hands and wild broad imagination.

Today, I received a message from my former student. He thanked me for teaching him and that our conversations about Life, Love and Morality made us a better person. This made me happy because I can make a difference to somebody's older than me who already had lots of experience in life.

The intellectual week is over and I am starting to like meeting new people now. I used to be terrified and scared of introductions because of the doubt inside my head but the time somehow erased it. No more doubt! All I have to do is to believe in myself and that everybody is different. God never made two people exactly alike.

This is my friend's request. Although the quality is so-so she's still willing to accept my work. Thank you.

Mr. Undertaker in poster paint. I made this one while waiting for someone but he ditch me so I was kind of sad and depressed since I was expecting him. It's okay now.

This week... I hope for happiness and contentment. Let's do our best! Be happy and spread the love everyone!

Things that made me happy:
>Message from former student.
>Chatting with friends and cousins.
>New album of Bruno Mars.
>Finished my lesson on time.
>Chocolate muffin
>New day.
>That I am still alive.

Last night, a lot of my friends liked my dinner. Lettuce, apple, carrots, tomato and spam salad. Here it is! It looks light but is actually heavy because of spam.