"Vanishes"
I wasn't able to make it. The result was released 24 hours after the last day of examination. Almost all of my friends were not on the list who passed. A very sad day.
Ironically I don't feel sad at all. Am I just fooling my self that I am not sad? pretending that I don't feel anything? Numb? the answer is...
I don't know. I was quite surprised to see my self calm and on a positive mode. My parents cannot comprehend why am I not crying or hysterically throwing tantrums... That, I cannot really explain.
More importantly, people pitied me because they thought I was trying to veil my emotions by wearing a happy face. They keep on telling "Pssshhh... there's still next time." etc. But I know that they were happily feasting deep inside, especially those people who were blatantly showing me their happy face. I cannot understand why my "This Event" was such a big deal for them? My mom says, because that they wanted to see me DEFEATED. On the other hand, that incident made me tough emotionally and mentally. Even though my plans this year vanished in one blink of an eye... I still have enough strenghth to stand and fight...again.
I learned a great deal of lessons and I will make them as my inspirations in the future. Their insulting words will serve as the fuel for my fight.
Things I am thankful today:
-My parents who were very supportive.
-Encouraging words and advice from my TRUE friends.
-White hat galore with my little cousin Kim.
