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In this world, we are all lucky for having people who really appreciate us for "Who" and "What" we are. It doesn't matter if this person is your friend, stranger or relatives because what we really want, what we really desire deep inside is full "ACCEPTANCE" from another human being.
In my experiences, I am telling you that many people don't really like me. They don't like the fact that I:
- Blog.
- Draw and able to do some arts
- am enrolled in Graduate School
- teach English to foreigners
- am learning how to play guitar
- can write anything that goes on my mind
- can now speak and talk in public
- am doing everything I can to do things that I want to do
- post videos in this blog and the fact that I have a youtube account
Although it hurts me most of the time that people can't really "Understand" me, WHY I do things that I am doing now... there are still people who encourage and appreciate me for all the little things that I have and had done. Even if these people are only few.
One of them is my Aunt Tess. Our distance in not just miles... I feel like she's living in a different planet but despite of this fact... she's always there for me just like my mother who always supports me in EVERYTHING.
She's a busy person but when it comes to her family... especially to us; her nieces and nephew she can sacrifice her time. That's how she shows her love, concern and thoughtfulness. I sometimes feel that she spoils everyone because she most of the time showers us with gifts.
But you know what really matters to me? It's not the material gifts I received from her but her words of wisdom and encouragements. She's one of my personal councilors... when I had broken my heart she was there to comfort me. She's very far but I do believe that "Distance is only Physics". If two people have strong connection... distance doesn't matter at all. Right?
In my opinion, SHE IS THE REAL artist in our family. When I was just a little kid, she drew a portrait of me. I still have the copy of that drawing and it served as one of my inspirations when I was still looking for my own talent (although, I am just a hobbyist).
She's a good person and no matter what other people says about her (the negatives)... I am telling you. It's none of our business, it's theirs because that's their opinion not us. Whatever word comes from them defines THEM and it will never defines my aunt.
If not for her and for other people who believe in my capabilities and abilities, I may still be lock inside my cage... but now that I can feel that FREEDOM is just around the corner... I'm very THANKFUL for everything and for everyone.
Dear Aunt Tess,
Thank you very much for granting one of my wishes. I think you're my Fairy Godmother. Thank you for all the encouragements and word of wisdom. I will do my best to be MORE patient and wait for the things that I TRULY deserve. You are right, if other people don't like me or can't like me... so be it. I will be myself all the time and I will try not to be SHY in public anymore. I will smile more often and think positively. I will teach myself to become strong and independent like you. I will be happy... promise... even if it will take a long time.
Thank you for being my mother during our Japan Pleasure Trip. Really, you treated me as your own daughter and I am very thankful and grateful for that.
I will work hard and do my very best to become a person who is WORTHY to be love. Someday, I will repay you for all the things that you had given me.
This Blog entry is for you. I didn't write this one to be called a PARASITE. I just want to express my deepest appreciation and gratitude because you made me truly and fully HAPPY.
Thank you Aunt Tess... as always and I know that you already this. I love you.
Sincerely,
Erica (one of your babies)
