Toxic People

 

Erix here and it has been a long time! This entry is all about the people who are becoming toxic in my life.

 

Toxic people. Who are they? They are the one who appear to be your friends but actually they aren't. They act sincere and sympathetic but you know that are secretly celebrating your downfall. They love seeing you frustrated, irritated and down. They are like a specimen who feeds from your misery. Your every pain is the supplement that keeps them alive. Your bruise is the apple of their eyes.

 

Sadly, the people whom I thought are true to me... they are starting to evolve into Toxic people. A pest. They are pulling me down. Every time I try to stand up from a bad thing that happened to me, they will create a trap so that when I walk forward I would be caught and be imprisoned in the box called FRUSTRATION.

 

They are powerful. Evil thoughts that lingers on their mind are creative. I am very confused whether to ignore or to fight. Why? Because I am getting tired of playing their devilish game but at the same time I want to avoid argument. And this is why people accuse me of being too polite and too nice. They addressed that these attitudes are the cause why these toxic people are taking advantage of me.

 

To be honest, I have been enduring their treatment towards me. They are older that's why it's very hard for me to answer back. My parents taught me to always respect the elders. But seriously, I need to stand up for myself.

 

Yes, it's true. They are not my boss. They don't have any right to ask me to do things which are not my responsibility. I am not their member and I don't have any responsibility to follow their orders.

 

I am so tired of hearing from them what I should  and should not do. I have my own mind and I don't need to listen to their every words. I have my own hands, my own feet, my own brain. So why should I listen to them? I should make use of what I have.

 

That's the thought that keeps on running on my head since yesterday. When I tried to answer back, said "No" and expressed my opinions. They gave me a sour look. They were shocked. And you know what? It felt good. I suddenly realized how liberating it was to speak your mind without having any second thoughts.

 

Of course, I will admit. Somehow, I felt bad for them. But you know sometimes, I have to be severe with others to avoid being treated like an underling.

 

I finally decided to avoid them and treat them casually. Because if I want my life to be better... I must avoid things and people that will only give me negativity.

 

Good night.

 

Sincerely,

 

Erica/Erix

 

Things that I am thankful for:

1. Talking to a friend.
2. Playing my guitar and ukulele.
3. Playing with my little cousin.
4. Doing Yoga and cardio exercise.
5. Accomplishing all my tasks.
6. Reading books.
7. That my parents are in good health.
8. That my friends are in good health.
9. That I am still alive.