Blog // "New Beginning"

"Suddenly, A New Beginning"
by: Aki.

I'm still coping up with what happenned to me. However, all the positivity that were lying silently deep down suddenly; they bursted out with a bang! that's why even though half of me is still trying to heal the wounds and bruises I got from falling down, the other half is already on the verge of fighting back.

That's life. Sometimes you're on top and you feel like you can do everything that's impossible but most often than not people tend to feel like they're nobody, they feel empty and sad. Those negative feelings will eventually motivate them to try harder and give their best on the second time around. The bitter sweet reality is that bad experiences are blessings in disguise. Let's us all try to look for lessons in those misadventures and learn from them so that you can build the strength that you might need NEXT TIME.

There's nothing wrong with falling down. You might get hurt, feel the pain, cry. You might isolate yourself from the social environment but this is what called "Running away" and this will make you a "Coward". Yes, it is indeed very easy to tell yourself that you have to fight back all the adversaries, the villains, the crab mentality that lurks in the head of people around you; but you have to decide, if you will let them defeat you again and again. You will be the "FOREVER LOSER" and whether you like it or not... this will be an endless cycle. Try to imagine the pain, the shame... it's unfathomable. (based on my experience).

Decide for yourself and let your  mind listen to your heart. Let's do it. To be an "Optimist" is the least thing we can do for ourselves.

THOUGHT:

The more anxious you are, the worse it gets.
-nadeshiko

Don't miracles happen when someone does their best?
-ai kara hajimaru

The correct path is the one you make for your self.
-arakure

What's Up: May "Art-ful Week"

 SECLUSION

 THE MASOCHIST

EYE PATCHED

PUPPET HAND

My recent works were inspired by the manga "Another". I made an "Aki" version since they all depicted what I am feeling right now. Sad and dark.

Things that I am Thankful today:

-My talent. (I consider it as a talent)

-My hands.

-My fans. (artwork fans/friends)

-The rain.

Blog // "Vanishes"

"Vanishes" 

 

I wasn't able to make it. The result was released 24 hours after the last day of examination. Almost all of my friends were not on the list who passed. A very sad day.

Ironically I don't feel sad at all. Am I just fooling my self that I am not sad? pretending that I don't feel anything? Numb? the answer is... I don't know. I was quite surprised to see my self calm and on a positive mode. My parents cannot comprehend why am I not crying or hysterically throwing tantrums... That, I cannot really explain.

More importantly, people pitied me because they thought I was trying to veil my emotions by wearing a happy face. They keep on telling "Pssshhh... there's still next time." etc. But I know that they were happily feasting deep inside, especially those people who were blatantly showing me their happy face. I cannot understand why my "This Event" was such a big deal for them? My mom says, because that they wanted to see me DEFEATED. On the other hand, that incident made me tough emotionally and mentally. Even though my plans this year vanished in one blink of an eye... I still have enough strenghth to stand and fight...again.

I learned a great deal of lessons and I will make them as my inspirations in the future. Their insulting words will serve as the fuel for my fight.

Things I am thankful today:
-My parents who were very supportive.
-Encouraging words and advice from my TRUE friends.
-White hat galore with my little cousin Kim.