BLACK SATURDAY. I received a message from God...
"You are WONDERFULLY made." This message hit me with a BANG! Yes. I am WONDERFULLY made because the one who made me is WONDERFUL.
Now, I feel sorry for Him because I used to hate myself a lot. My fault, My fault because I was always affected whenever other people say bad things about me. I used to ask Him, "Why? Why me of all people in the world?! Why do I have to experience such terrible things?". But you know what... those experiences helped me to know myself better and love myself more even if I am not perfect. I came to love and accept all my flaws, because if they cannot accept them... who else will?
God never made two people exactly alike. Ever since I was born I was always compared to other girls. I got tired of listening to the same old things like "She's smart... you're not.", "She's pretty... you're not.", "She has pretty hair...", "She's sexy, you're not." Maybe... they cannot really understand that the other girls and I are different from each other. We are made to become who we really are not to become the exact same girl.
We are who we are. If they cannot accept this fact... don't make them. How can you make someone understand who doesn't want to understand? How can you make someone listen who doesn't want to hear your reasonings? You are going to waste your time explaining yourself.
Let's not be envious and jealous... Let's love ourselves! Why? Try to observe the people around you. Just try... you will see and realize how lucky you are for being you. I tried this before and you know what? It was a heart breaking experience... but I learned a great deal of lessons.
I saw street childrens who were begging for money just to have something to eat. I saw street vendors wearing shabby clothes and selling rags in order for them to buy foods for their family. I saw an old man without his left leg and begging for money on the streets. I saw an old woman, naked, dirty, shivering and begging for food. I saw a little girl with a huge bump on her face and I learned that it was cancer. I saw children who have serious illness fighting for their lives everyday... I saw a lot of things.
Although one can say that I am being dramatic here... seeing them like that... broke my heart and somehow made me feel that I am an extremely lucky person.
I am very thankful for everything. Those people showed me the way out of the darkness and when I finally got out the burden I am carrying disappeared. THANK YOU.
I may not go to church every Sunday but I see to it that I thank Him for everyday, evey hour, every minute, every second of my life.
Physically, I am not beautiful. I have a wide and huge forhead, thick lips, huge face, curly hair, sensitive skin, pale face, flat nose but these imperfections are part of me. It is enough for me to have two hands, two legs, complete fingers, healthy body... because... believe me... there are lots of people who want to have what I have. There are people who want to have what you have.
So enjoy every minute of your life and stop worrying. Remember that YOU ARE WONDERFULLY MADE.
Good Night!
Things that made me happy:
>Strawberry candy
>Vegetable Salad
>My puppies
>My parents
>New books
>Seeing his name. <3 hahaha!
P.S.
When I say "Him", I am talking about God. :)
Saturday, March 30, 2013
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
Blog // Heart warming Sincere words
Today is Thursday and I don't feel like doing anything. I hate idleness that's why I might as well share in this page some of the sincere words that I had received for the past months.
Although I am materialistic, I prefer receiving simple things made by the hands of the sender. I don't really like receiving expensive stuffs coming from friends and acquiantances because it made me feel like our Friendship has some kind of a price tag. I don't like it.
Yes, I know that "Actions speak louder than words" but there are some people who can express themselves much better through words... especially through writing them on a piece of paper. I witnessed this with some of my students who appeared to be not approachable but who are really emotional and sensitive inside.
I think that our Cultural differences, Language factors, Age gaps were some of the reasons why they seemed to build a certain wall between all of us. I can understand them.
I am very happy with my job now because I am learning new things and my view about life is becoming clearer.
I met different kinds of people from different races who speak different languages who can understand basic English. I am very lucky to be one of the people who considered English as their second language, because through this, I was able to communicate to these people who are working hard to learn.
As for myself, I don't have self esteem and these people gave me this. I am very thankful to them for appreciating my hard work, my sincerity, my character and my entire being. They accepted me for who I am and treated and respected me as a Teacher, Friend, Older Sister and Younger sister.
For me, They are blessings from heaven. My memories with them are my treasure and every single day spent with them were worth it. I will never forget them in my entire life.
It is amazing how communication could build a bridge between different countries. Upon realizing this, I immediately changed my opinion about socilaizing and communicating with foreigners.
Memories/Letters/Gifts:
Things that made me happy:
>Hand written letters
>Origami
>Peppero
>Pineapple
>Carrots and cabbage
Although I am materialistic, I prefer receiving simple things made by the hands of the sender. I don't really like receiving expensive stuffs coming from friends and acquiantances because it made me feel like our Friendship has some kind of a price tag. I don't like it.
Yes, I know that "Actions speak louder than words" but there are some people who can express themselves much better through words... especially through writing them on a piece of paper. I witnessed this with some of my students who appeared to be not approachable but who are really emotional and sensitive inside.
I think that our Cultural differences, Language factors, Age gaps were some of the reasons why they seemed to build a certain wall between all of us. I can understand them.
I am very happy with my job now because I am learning new things and my view about life is becoming clearer.
I met different kinds of people from different races who speak different languages who can understand basic English. I am very lucky to be one of the people who considered English as their second language, because through this, I was able to communicate to these people who are working hard to learn.
As for myself, I don't have self esteem and these people gave me this. I am very thankful to them for appreciating my hard work, my sincerity, my character and my entire being. They accepted me for who I am and treated and respected me as a Teacher, Friend, Older Sister and Younger sister.
For me, They are blessings from heaven. My memories with them are my treasure and every single day spent with them were worth it. I will never forget them in my entire life.
It is amazing how communication could build a bridge between different countries. Upon realizing this, I immediately changed my opinion about socilaizing and communicating with foreigners.
Memories/Letters/Gifts:
Things that made me happy:
>Hand written letters
>Origami
>Peppero
>Pineapple
>Carrots and cabbage
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