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"I Entered A Vacant Room"
Written by: Erica/Erix
Date written: January 16, 2014
I found an empty corner and sat down on the floor. I felt the emptiness of the room and the undying aching pain started to dominate my five senses and my sane mind. I started to feel the heaviness on my chest... again. I leaned my head on the wall. I stared blankly onto the space in front of me with my emotionless face.
I breathed heavily as I tried to grasp the meaning behind the fast beating of my heart.
I saw scenes from my imagination. I walked slowly towards my happiness; my dreams... a subtle smile touched my lips as I saw the face of love. Although it was not vivid, my heart knew... every part of me felt it. I raised my hand to touch the face... love smiled at me and touched and grabbed my hand while leading me towards the light... and then something snapped that brought me back to the real world.
My love is too good to be true. I woke up from the subterfuge dream that's full of stultification...
I never wished for it to end. I never wanted to wake up from my dream created by illusion but reality will always be my best enemy... for it knows that I am not fitted to live inside the world of the unreal.
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I just finished the movie "On The Road" starring my favorite actress Kristen Stewart. I love the book but the movie... was so-so for me. All of sudden I felt the urge to write... and I entered a vacant room... the emotions came flooding in. So my inspiration? The vacant room and the pain in my heart.
Have a good night world!
Much love,
Erica/Erix
Things that made me happy:
- Jelly bean candies from Candy Corner Shop.
- Singing "Stand by me" by John Lennon with my mother and my aunt.
- Playing guitar with my six years old cousin.
- Listening to some songs. Music is helping me to ease my depression.
- Relaxing shower at night.
