(Photo by: My soon to be Cousin "Orlie")
Today’s the last day of 2013! I’m very thankful for this year. I am one of the luckiest persons of the year. If I have the opportunity to stop the time… I will stop it in this year but… TIME FLOWS. Nobody can stop it. All of us MUST move on and go on with our life.So, I am going to list my FIRSTS of 2013.
- First Job Interview
- First Job
- First Salary
- First Student (Annie/ Lee Ji Won)
- First Class in MBA
- First time to pass Civil Service Examination (without reviewing)
- First Colleague to talk to me (Cris)
- First time to get mad in public
- First time to ride the MRT train “Alone”
- First time to go at the bank “Alone”
- First time to get a “Visa”
- First time to reject someone
- First time to fall in love
- First time to be rejected
- First time to get my heart broken
- First time to sing and play the guitar at the same time
- First time to be called as a “Great Poet” by a Japanese
- First time to have coffee “Alone” for 5 hours straight
- First time to make an inspirational video
- First time to say “No” to something which I don’t really like
There’s still more and I can’t list them here. 2013 is the best year of my life… as of now. Although I experienced a lot of painful things… physically and emotionally… these things taught me how to be a strong woman. Some people consider me as an “Artist” and I think we artist are very emotional. We let our emotions control us because it is what makes us create our arts… our emotions inspires us.
Like me… my experiences are my inspirations in writing poems, simple songs, essays, drawing and painting… and it is nice to know that people who read my works could actually feel what I was feeling when I wrote them or made my arts. The poems like “She is… I’m not” ( http://mori-aki.blogspot.com/2013/12/she-is-im-not-one-sided-love-song-first.html ) was inspired by my instinct… and I was CORRECT. The simple song “One Sided Love” ( http://mori-aki.blogspot.com/2013/12/she-is-im-not-one-sided-love-song-first.html ) is based on my experience. The poem “Where should I stand?” (which I deleted) was written during the times when I was confused about my role in someone’s life… and just a few days ago… this poem was answered…
the question is “Where should I stand?”…
the answer is… I stand nowhere in this person’s life.
It hurts but this is the answer to my question.
The things I did this year helped me to grow up, to become independent and to be strong… somehow.
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Two nights ago, I wasn’t able to sleep. 10:00 pm and then 1:00 am and then 3:17 am… until 6:00 am… I was WIDE AWAKE. I couldn’t sleep. I couldn’t close my eyes because it was terribly painful. There were so many things that were running on my mind and I couldn’t help but to think… think… and think…
Even if I said that I can handle this situation… I don’t know where to start, where to go and where will I get my strength… I just don’t know. No matter how good I am in acting (good actress… in college)… I don’t know if I can conceal everything…
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Happy New Year everyone!!!!! I wish you all the best this year. Happiness, love, good health and peace of mind! Let’s all be happy! If you have problems… let’s talk about it and send me message at (straberryshortcakeo6@yahoo.com)! Yes it is an “o” not “0”.... I’m gonna have party with my cousins! See yah!
With all my love, Erica/Erix
I am so sad. Why is it so painful?
I have a video here.... This is me while I was practicing the song "It must have been love" for the first time. I don't know the strumming pattern. haha! just for fun.
