Unfortunately I can't find any video of this song at youtube. I will be sharing a mixtape here. Listen and enjoy!
(Sorry, I seem to have a little bit of trouble loading the mixtape site but I will update this entry.)
SO 2013 HELLO! PLEASE BE GOOD TO ME.
I celebrated my new year with my cousins. Let me share a picture of us together with my granny (yes, the one with alzheimers)
(From left: Jerix, Renzo, Zhir, Iji, Angie, Kimi, Me (Aki), Older cousin Jen and Granny)
We don't really celebrate new year and it was the first time that we were together while welcoming the year. (Redundant?) I usually stay inside my room because my lungs cannot tolerate too much smoke coming from the fireworks and my ears are quite sensitive from the loud noise of firecrackers, but that night I was on the mood of wanting to experience these things. My night was full of laughter and positive ideas because my cousin Jen shared her work experiences to me; aside from that she gave advices about how I will be able to survive in the real outside world. She told me that "faith" is all I need to bring out my self confidence. I am very thankful for her words of wisdom because I learned a great deal of lessons... really.
Since my cousins wanted something new we bought 3 bottles of Soju (korean liquour) as replacement for the usual beer and wine (although I don't really drink and it's been years since I last tasted alcohol). With all honesty I enjoyed the bitter taste of this Soju but my cousins were like "What is this taste?!" and they eyed me as if I was a freak for liking the taste of it. I was trolling so hard. LOL.
I am not really expecting something big this year but I want to stop the unnecessary idleness in my life. I want to MOVE ON and get a grip from reality. I think I am ready to step out, stand up and walk my shaky legs for a change. I don't want to act like a loser anymore, like someone who was always mourning... I need a change of lifestyle and environment that's why I am a taking a break from my suffocating and stressful life brought by my ex-lover (accountancy) but it doesn't mean that I will not enter the corporate world anymore... I don't want my hard work for the past 5 years to be in vain. I still want to make use of my knowledge in the near future. For now... I decided to do what I want, the way I want. I am going to keep myself busy. Studying while working... stressful? I don't think so, because feeding my mind with knowledge is very fulfilling and as for me it is one of my stress reliever. Through this I can simultaneously gain more knowledge and share my knowledge with other people.
I am inspired to start my year with positive ideas. I am leaving behind the past that caused me too much pain but I will see to it that those experiences will be my inspirations, it will eventually serve as a trigger to boost my confidence.
I will keep my FAITH in Him and will never Doubt Him because He always have faith in me and he never doubted my capabilities.
Happy 2013
