It's been a long time. For the past weeks I became terribly busy with my work, preparation for something new in the future, focusing to myself and letting go of people who absorbed my energy.
I learned a great deal of lessons from my past mistakes. I was almost pulled into a complicated situation where people will try to destroy and torture me slowly. I am very FORTUNATE to meet people who helped get away and taught me the way out. Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart.
Why should I continue to linger with people who are causing me so much stress, pressuring me to do things that I don't want to do, asking me to do things that I am not capable of and discouraging me to take actions for my plans? They're not WORTH IT. Those people will only cause my DOWNFALL. I know, they will DEFINITELY silently laugh their ass off when this thing happen. Luckily, I was able to cut the connections from them and here I am... floating, have a peaceful mind and living healthily with manageable stress.
Making myself happy is one thing that I can actually do for myself. This is not selfishness or VANITY. I can call this self nourishment. I only have few TRUE and CLOSE friends and I cannot expect them to make me happy all the time. This is my responsibility to myself as a human being. My student once said... "Think positive even in a negative situation." This is TRUE. Past is past, and although this past is still connected to the "NOW" and "FUTURE"... the most important time is "NOW" because this will greatly affect my FUTURE.
1. Choosing the right people.
I was very inspired by Marc and Angels Hack life (Thank you very much Cherry blossoms). They have lots of inspirational quotes and blog entries. They helped me in the process of making myself happy and thinking POSITIVELY all the time. Their words of encouragements were like foods for the soul that causes the reader to be free from all the bad things and bad thougths. They were the one who taught me to choose the right people. People who inspires me, encourages me, true to me, love me for WHO I am. People who are not nosy, who loves to talk about the good things, who love LIFE and love LOVE.
2. One step at time.
I have goals that I want to achieve. I have plans that I want to accomplish. But I can only achieve and accomplish them if I take some actions. I need to make plans and decisions in the future. I am going to work SLOWLY but SURELY. There's no need to hurry.
3. Do good things to other people.
Once in a while. I do good things to strangers. I give candies to taxi drivers, give biscuits to street children, smile to traffic enforcers who are tired and sweaty under the heat of the sun, give band aids to girls who are wearing 3-4 inches high heels inside the elevator, giving warm greeting to the people in the street... so on... I am not boasting about my good deeds, I am only trying to say that doing those things made me feel wonderful, somehow I made a difference in their life.
4. Talk about GOOD things.
Recently, I noticed that everytme I talk about good things... I only hear good things too. It is actually better than to be infested with bad things like rumors and stuffs about other people.
Sometimes, I don't need money to make myself happy. Words and actions are enough for me. My student once said "Simple is better." I learned that Simplicity can be one of the catalysts to a happy life.
GOOD DAY!
Things that made me happy:
>Passing the entrance for the graduate school. I will definitely get my degree of MASTER IN BUSINESS ADMINISTRATION. I can do it!
>Healthy foods.
>Vanilla smell.
>Cloudy day.
>Execising
PS:
I've been dreaming of this person for 2 nights in a row now.
