Another Ironic post...I was so happy this morning but it was washed away by something. I think I will be visiting the Hospital again. Just imagining the interior of the building, the faces of the patients, the smell of alcohol and the depressing scene... I'm starting to panic and get nervous again. I don't want to go there... but if I want to have peace of mind I must go and face the future... What will happen then? No one knows.
My first semester in Graduate School is not something to be proud of but something to be remember. It was worth it. I was able to learn more things other than Accounting, I met new friends who are older than me (Professionals), I had the chance to exposed myself with unfamilliar things, I learned how to socialized in an unforgiving and competitive environment and lastly I somehow became a better person.
The hardest part was the process of completing my presentations. I had no idea what to do first, how to present in front of so many people who are well educated, how to carry myself and how to make them respect me despite of being one of the youngest MBA students. Fortunately, even if I am very EXHAUSTED now... I was able to do them through hard work, persistence, self-control and of course through social networking.
Honestly speaking, I want to graduate faster. I'm starting to get more tired everyday and I'm really bothered with something. I may not be able to enjoy my one month vacation in Graduate School because of this. It's freaking me out! really! I have to control myself or else I might break down again... I don't want to go back to that kind of life. I had enough of it. Drama. Tears and Darkness.
On the other hand, I am going to try to focus on something like writing ramdom verses, reading books, studying foreign language, or anything! just to calm down.
Tomorrow, I will face this new challenge in my life. Just like what I've been telling to everybody, to my friends and to him... "Think positive. Everything will be alright." I want to punch myself for giving this advice to them because I realized how hard it is to follow. I'm very sorry. For this kind of situation, this is the only thing I can do... PRAY.
Good night. Tomorrow will be another day. I am hoping for a better day.
Things that made me happy:
- Semestral Break
- Oranges
- Health Tips from my classmates
- Positive feedbacks from students
- Successful Presentations
- Talking to him
- Cranberry Juice
- Writing on my notebook (Stress Reliever)
