(Photo by: Erica/Erix)
One of my rituals during the last few days of the year is to do a GENERAL Cleaning of my room. Meaning to say, I scrubbed the floor, changed my curtain, wiped away all the dust on my wall, re-arranged my books, cleaned my cabinets and bookshelves, threw away all the things I don't need anymore, changed my bed sheet and pillow cases. It took me one whole day because my cousins came at the house and we chatted. Nice timing! haha! At least they came. I think, OUR New Year will be HAPPY because we made a plan.
I am the type of a person who can't live without MUSIC. In everything that I do... there should be music. So, while I was cleaning my room I turned my iTunes to shuffle and let the songs play on their own. Here are some songs and lines from them.
You have stolen my
heart
(“Stolen” by
Dashboard Confessionals)
How can I decide
what’s right? When you’re clouding up my mind.
What kind of man you
are? If you’re a man at all.
I will figure this
one out… on my own.
(“Decode” by
Paramore)
It looks like you’ve
given up. You’ve had enough.
(“I Don’t Believe You” by Pink)
How could you do it?
I never saw it coming.
(“When It Rains” by
Paramore)
I don’t want to mess
this thing up; I don’t want to push too far.
We don’t need to
rush. Let’s just take this slow.
(“Just A Kiss” by
Lady Antabellum)
I’m just a human. I
have a skeleton in me.
(“Monster” by
Paramore)
Yes, I’d come for you
but only if you want me to.
(“I’d Come For You”
by Nickelback)
But it pulls me
deeper now, I can’t escape.
(“Buried Beneath” by
Red)
What hurts the most
was being so close and having so much to say and watching you walk away.
(What Hurts The Most)
We both wake in
lonely beds… different cities.
(“Sad Beautiful
Tragic” by Taylor Swift)
I hate it, I hate it,
I hate it when you’re not around, when you’re gone.
(“I Hate It” by
Ellegarden)
I am with you, I will
carry you through it all
I won’t leave you
I will catch you when
you feel like letting go
Cause you’re not,
you’re not alone.
(“Not Alone” by Red)
I just want to sit
and stare at you.
(“Fall Into Pieces”
by Avril Lavigne)
Coz darling, you are
the only exception.
(“Only Exception” by
Paramore)
I told myself don’t
get attached, but in my mind I played it back.
(“Come Back Be Here”
by Taylor Swift)
You will never know
what you have done to me.
(“Tiny Heart” by
Flyleaf)
I never want to see
you unhappy.
(“Almost Lover” by A
fine frenzy)
I am in awe and….. I
am in love and given away.
(“Treasure” by
Flyleaf)
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Weak desire brings
weak result
By: Erica/Erix
Date written:
December 23, 2013
Date edited: December
27, 2013
Inspiration: The girl in the mirror
If weak desire brings
weak result
Then, if my desire to
see him is stronger than the Earth’s crust
Will I ever see him
again?
If weak desire brings
weak result
Then, if my desire to
see him happy is stronger than Egypt’s Pyramid
Will I ever see him
happy?
If weak desire brings
weak result
Then, if my desire to
be near him is stronger than the strongest super hero
Will I ever be near
him?
Desire, Desire,
Desire
Let my hope be fired
up
I feel the heat of
each red fire
As I follow my
desire.
It's exactly 9:15 pm and I can't sleep. Regardless... Have a good night everyone! How about you? What's your end of the year ritual?
Things that made me happy:
- Cleaning my room. I love the smell of new bed sheet and pillow cases. I like my room very much.
- Playing the guitar... randomly.
- Talking to my cousins and aunt. I love laughing with them.
- Taking a full body bath at night. Very relaxing.
