If I am going to paint what I am feeling at the moment... it would be the usual gray and black shade. Neutral Tone.
As I am typing this... my thoughts are Tangled. Confused. I can't even express my real emotion.
What happened today made me realize that I am a WEAK person. A chicken. Weakling. How I wish I could be like my friends who are strong, who have the guts to fight for their rights... but as for me. I STILL can't.
I hate fighting and bickering as much as possible, but in this certain case it is inevitable. I have to stand up and be strong in front of the people who are trying to ruin me. I have to be independent. It is sad because I am the kind of person who always needs protection... but this time, I want to lean on myself.
I never thought that I will be able to meet people who could make me feel that the world is full of evil beings. I am a nice person but please... I am begging you not to take advantage of this. I already begged them many times; but what did they do? They took advantage of it. I HAD ENOUGH.
Yes. I am CINDERELLA. Why? because my shoes went missing. I terribly hate LIARS and LYING. I can't tolerate them... white lies are okay but BIG LIES are NO-NO.
I therefore conclude that PRINCE CHARMING don't exist. My shoes are now in the hands of someone who is a GUILTY LIAR. I feel very sad, because I wasn't able to get back what is really MINE.
However, I AM A LUCKY person. My friends and parents are very supportive and they have given me courage to be strong and advice on how to treat the people who are trying to pull me down. Crab Mentality is everywhere. Beware.
Tomorrow is another day. I will do what I can to fight for my right. Good night. Good night.
Things that made me happy:
- Grapes
- Laughter of my coworkers
- Banana Song
- Talking with my students
- Sounds of Baby's laughter
- The texture of My soft bed
Things that made me sad:
- LIARS
- Lying
- Back stabbers
