Thursday, June 7, 2012

Blog // "New Beginning"

"Suddenly, A New Beginning"
by: Aki.

I'm still coping up with what happenned to me. However, all the positivity that were lying silently deep down suddenly; they bursted out with a bang! that's why even though half of me is still trying to heal the wounds and bruises I got from falling down, the other half is already on the verge of fighting back.

That's life. Sometimes you're on top and you feel like you can do everything that's impossible but most often than not people tend to feel like they're nobody, they feel empty and sad. Those negative feelings will eventually motivate them to try harder and give their best on the second time around. The bitter sweet reality is that bad experiences are blessings in disguise. Let's us all try to look for lessons in those misadventures and learn from them so that you can build the strength that you might need NEXT TIME.

There's nothing wrong with falling down. You might get hurt, feel the pain, cry. You might isolate yourself from the social environment but this is what called "Running away" and this will make you a "Coward". Yes, it is indeed very easy to tell yourself that you have to fight back all the adversaries, the villains, the crab mentality that lurks in the head of people around you; but you have to decide, if you will let them defeat you again and again. You will be the "FOREVER LOSER" and whether you like it or not... this will be an endless cycle. Try to imagine the pain, the shame... it's unfathomable. (based on my experience).

Decide for yourself and let your  mind listen to your heart. Let's do it. To be an "Optimist" is the least thing we can do for ourselves.

THOUGHT:

The more anxious you are, the worse it gets.
-nadeshiko

Don't miracles happen when someone does their best?
-ai kara hajimaru

The correct path is the one you make for your self.
-arakure


Wednesday, June 6, 2012

What's Up: May "Art-ful Week"


 SECLUSION



 THE MASOCHIST


EYE PATCHED

PUPPET HAND

My recent works were inspired by the manga "Another". I made an "Aki" version since they all depicted what I am feeling right now. Sad and dark.

Things that I am Thankful today:
-My talent. (I consider it as a talent)
-My hands.
-My fans. (artwork fans/friends)
-The rain.


Blog // "Vanishes"

"Vanishes" 
 

I wasn't able to make it. The result was released 24 hours after the last day of examination. Almost all of my friends were not on the list who passed. A very sad day.

Ironically I don't feel sad at all. Am I just fooling my self that I am not sad? pretending that I don't feel anything? Numb? the answer is... I don't know. I was quite surprised to see my self calm and on a positive mode. My parents cannot comprehend why am I not crying or hysterically throwing tantrums... That, I cannot really explain.

More importantly, people pitied me because they thought I was trying to veil my emotions by wearing a happy face. They keep on telling "Pssshhh... there's still next time." etc. But I know that they were happily feasting deep inside, especially those people who were blatantly showing me their happy face. I cannot understand why my "This Event" was such a big deal for them? My mom says, because that they wanted to see me DEFEATED. On the other hand, that incident made me tough emotionally and mentally. Even though my plans this year vanished in one blink of an eye... I still have enough strenghth to stand and fight...again.

I learned a great deal of lessons and I will make them as my inspirations in the future. Their insulting words will serve as the fuel for my fight.

Things I am thankful today:
-My parents who were very supportive.
-Encouraging words and advice from my TRUE friends.
-White hat galore with my little cousin Kim.






Monday, April 16, 2012

What's Up: "Unwinding"

Happy Birthday to my cousin Jennifer! <3

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Before the Examination ends I planned to give myself a one day "Free day" wherein I can do anything
I want... Except studying. 

To Do List:
>Buy books
>Read books
>Eat pasta
>Go Karaoke
>Read Manga
>Roam around Araneta Center
>Walk, Talk and have fun with a friend
>Laugh


Books:
I was curious about this book because it was placed in the shelves "Must read fiction" in a bookstore that I went to. I bought this because I'm a fan of Paulo Coelho. His works changed the way I handle everyday situations, the way I see things in life and his words made me feel like I'm an individual separated from other people. He's a great novelist and I respect his opinions very much.


I haven't started reading this book though. Maybe in May... So currently I have 9 books by Paulo Coelho. ^^V


The Movie adapted novel by one of the highly respected Asian Author Haruki Murakami. His books are all placed in the "Literary award winner". I first stumbled upon his works when I was randomly checking out books in a bookstore way back 2009. The first book I had by him was "After dark". I don't really know him by then, but since he's Japanese I tried to read it. (that was a petty reason, yes I know.) What I can really say is that he have his own technique in writing, not straightforward and it made me analyzed his every words in the novel. I read it for 3 times because I can't really comprehend what he's trying to say but I appreciate all his works.


Eat Pasta:

I'm with my cousin's girlfriend today. We had so much fun even though we don't have much money. LOL

We went to karaoke, talked about random things. The past, present and future. We had a conversation. haha! We have so much in common and I guess that's the reason why I like her very much.

And then we ate pasta. Lasagna with pizza, fries and onion bread. It's very unhealthy but hey! it's only for a day. ^^V

After that I showed her the stores and other boutiques that I knew. The "Reading room", it's an accessories shop. "Genshiken" was supossed to be an action figure store but we were surprised when we saw japanese vintage collection stuffs. Maybe the old owner decided not to sell the items. sigh.

And then we went to thrift shops. I browsed some old books while Ran-nee had fun with the old stuffed toys.

Those were the things that I did. I know that they were not very exciting or adventurous but at least I was able to forget all my worries.

Things that made me happy:
>Laughter
>Pasta
>New Books
>Freedom



Saturday, April 7, 2012

Blog // Easter Sunday

Happy Easter Sunday everyone!

Eggs and Bunny are everywhere... why oh why I can't see any image of Jesus Christ? It's sad to finally realize that fewer people actually know how to celebrate the season. Maybe because everyone has their reason... I just hope those reasons are not void... but hey... there's no such thing as void reason in God's eyes.

Things that made my day:
>Ramen
>Bunny
>Colorful eggs

Photo from the past: 
"It opens" May 7, 2011


Monday, January 2, 2012

Cold Weather

9:21pm

My lips are DRY?!!!!!! What more can I ask for in this cold weather. My skin is soo dry that I have to apply lotion constantly. BBBBRRRRR... I'm freezing.

Well I'm quite proud of myself today because I finished all the things that were written in my to do list. Great Start! I just hope that I can maintain being responsible in handling my time. <3

Yes I just studied today and uploaded some pictures for my relatives in Italy and Canada to see what happened to us last New Year. Hoho. Just to update them.

Things that I am happy about:
> New Lip Gloss (Majolica Majorca)
> Hot Ramen
> Peaceful Surroundings